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01 January 2007 @ 04:20 pm
My Heart Has Started To Separate.  
I dont know if i can do this. I dont know if i have the strength. I keep thinking he'll call or show up or something, but he wont, and i can only blame it on myself this time. I just keep thinking I did this totally horrible thing. I know that it was probably for the better, but right now im just so lonley. I feel like i have no one.
How can i give up a years worth of memories?? The part that hurts the most is that all his stupid coats are still here and everything.
All i can think about is the good times of course. Not all the bad times. I need to think about all the bad times. Like when he always ignores my phone calls. How he treats me like crap. I havent really had a day alone with him in months. I missed him constantly anyways. Whats the difference now?
That i cant call him and tell him that i miss him and hes an asshole.
I hate this.
Im not strong enough.
Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted
Current Music: The Fray
twinny77 on January 2nd, 2007 12:03 am (UTC)
i cant honestly say if it was the best thing to do because i dont know the whole story. but what i do know, is that if you believe it was what you had to do, then thats what you had to do. and you are strong enough, i know you are.
btw--kaleigh is coming in at like 6-ish tomorrow if you wanna come by the store. james is there til 2, and jamie comes in at 6. its SO creepy that i know that.